you lost her when you pulled away. when she tried to pull you back but you just distanced yourself. you didn’t try to talk to her and turned your back against her.
you lost her when she tried to understand you but you left her without enough reason. to her, you were her forever but you treated her like she was just your temporary girl.
you lost her when she asked for a chance but you didn’t give her that. she asked for a chance because she wants to prove herself to you, that’s she’s worth a shot but you didn’t.
you lost her when you couldn’t make up your mind because you were so unsure about her. you didn’t let things through. you may love her a little for a short time. but that’s just it.
you lost her when she starts to walk away but you didn’t try to reach her. she waited for you to run after her but you didn’t. instead, you let her go. you know she’ll give you a chance but you all she heard was nothing.
you lost her when you made her feel like you’re the one who will treat her better but it wasn’t you. you just left her. you made her believe that there are endless possibilities but you choose to take it away. you abandoned her.
face it. you lost her the moment you decided to leave her.
and then it will hit you. when you wake up in the morning, it will hit you. when you’re alone, it will hit you.
and even if it won’t, you still lost the girl who’s willing to give you the love she can give with no limitations and no reservations.
but no, she won’t be waiting for you to come back.
she knew she was there for you when everything’s falling apart. she was there for you all throughout. and when everybody’s telling her to give you up, she didn’t. you knew it, right? she isn’t exactly what you wanted but she tried. she tried so hard.
you hurt her. yes, she might made a mistake. she knows she’s at fault, well at least, maybe half of it. of course, she blames herself.. over and over again. only because she’s human. we’re all human. we make mistakes.
but fortunately for her, she figured it all out. she realized she won’t be enough for you. she finally had the guts to stand up and accept that it was over.
now, it hit her too. she’s done. so so done.
however, she won’t be waiting for you to come around and get down on your knees and then ask her to take you back because it won’t happen.
it will never happen because you already lost her and no, she will not wait for you to come back.